Garden Variety Neurosis

Okay, I think I have relationship schizophrenia or something. It is amazing, how the things and people that are of interest to me change from one day to the next.

I'll explain...

I was reading my last post, and was amazed at my own silliness. I think I was indeed very overspent at the time of that posting, as I was quite enthralled with a young man who does not even speak English, with whom I do not even desire any kind of a relationship. Even moreso, since discovering that what little he did tell me about himself is not even true. Go figure. At any rate, it is funny to me, how I can sometimes get so caught up in emotions that are so unbelievably silly. Perhaps it was just a moment's reprieve from the stressors I've been dealing with. I'm not sure. However, I knew things had gone a bit far when he came up to me today and asked me for directions to my house. I, of course, did not give him directions, and made a point of avoiding him the rest of the day. I was very grateful that today was the last day of cherry processing. (though I feel like a bit of a jerk, if I have done anything to make him think he and I were in any way an "item".)

I celebrated my 30th birthday last Saturday, in a most wonderfully unexpected way.

A couple of weeks ago, a guy started working at the plant. He seemed very nice. I suspected he was a Christian, but we never really talked about it. We sat together at lunch, along with several others at our table, and just passed the time with joking and the small talk people make...Nothing extraordinary.

At any rate, he asked me what I was doing for my birthday, and I told him I was going to go see a movie. It occurred to me that he might like to come along, so I invited him. It wasn't a date, just two people going to see a movie, so I would have something to do on my birthday.

Later, he came up to me and asked me if I wanted to get something to eat before the movie. I said sure, we could do that. At this point, I am thinking that it's still just two people going out together. Not a date.

So, we went out, and it turned into a date, I guess. lol He paid for everything, which I guess makes it a date. We had a WONDERFUL time. There were no moments of awkward silence that so often happens on those first dates. We spent a lot of time talking about our faith, scripture, our church experiences, where we think God is leading the modern church, etc...We also spent a lot of time talking about silliness and nonsense, which in my mind makes for an evening of very well-rounded conversation.

We saw "Charlie and the Chocolate Factory" (my pick), and we both found it incredibly funny.

At the end of the evening, he thanked me for a wonderful night, and I thanked him for giving me a wonderful 30th birthday. We agreed that we wanted to see each other again before he goes back to school in a couple of weeks, and I am VERY MUCH looking forward to our next "date"(?).

At work today, he confessed to me that, up until we were eating dinner, he wasn't even sure if it was a date. And then, I told him I wanted to get some candy at the movies, but not to worry, because I'd brought my own money for that...and that sealed it. It is very funny, really. Who knows...maybe in the future, as we are sharing our story about our first date, we will be able to give everyone a good laugh about just how it came to be a date at all.

Anyway, I really had a great time. And he told me again today what a wonderful time he had, and that he'd been telling other people how great it was.

I have never, ever felt so at ease with someone. And it all came about somewhat accidentally. Or just incidentally. Happenstance.

Serendipity.