Garden Variety Neurosis

It's been awhile since my last post, so I thought I better get on the ball and post an update of some sort on how life has been lately...

The semester is over, for which I am very thankful. I finished to the best of my ability, and I think I actually did okay. I received a 4.0 on my final English paper, which might help make up for the 2.5 I received for the paper prior to that one. lol I am not sure how I will do in Criminal Justice, though, as I was not able to complete my court observation assignment. But, I did the best I could, and that's all I can do.

I have decided not to take classes next semester. I just have way too much going on.

I finished sales school on Thursday, and had my first day out in the field on Friday. I scheduleld five appointments, which I'm told is pretty good for a new agent's first day of cold calling. My first appointment is tomorrow morning at 11:15. I'm a little nervous, but it will be fine, I'm sure. I'm a "hands on" learner, so if things do go horribly wrong tomorrow, it will only mean that my next appointment will go that much better.

As I step out further in faith, I realize the risks become steeper. I am almost done with my now part-time job at Shanty Creek, which means my income will be dependent on doing well with Aflac. On one hand, I have so far been very blessed with good leads and welcoming business owners, and I am confident that I will begin signing groups and selling policies very soon. On the other hand, I realize that if I don't do that, I'm in trouble. However, there is nothing about this journey that has been at all conventional, and has not required every ounce of faith I have. Every step of this journey has been "all or nothing", and this is no different. Either I believe God brought me here for a reason and intends to provide what is necessary for me to succeed, or I believe He brought me here to fail completely and intends to abandon me at this very crucial point. There is no half way.

After my first day out in the field, it has become apparent to me that I will need to move in order to make the most of the opportunities available to me. I am working in the Petoskey/Harbor Springs area, and I live an hour or so south of there. Making that drive two or three times a week just to prospect businesses is going to become costly, not to mention what it will take to be able to service those accounts adequately.

It is funny, because for roughly the last year or so, my dad has been telling me that I needed to move up that way. I kept saying no, I don't want to move there, I want to move to Traverse City. But that door has remained tightly shut. I've also wanted to become more involved in ministry, but have had a hard time finding my niche in an area that is absolutely saturated with people willing to serve. However, my church is currently working on a church plant up in Petoskey. Lots of room to serve there! All indicators point to a move north. Now, I just need the business so I can generate enough income to make the move.

But, all that will come in time. It is good enough for now to finally feel at peace with where I am and where I am going. And with what I've seen so far, I can say with confidence that when the time is right, God will provide all I need to make the move.